Awesome Video

A friend of mine posted this video on facebook. So... I'll share it with you!

(you might want to press pause on the video to the right that's playing music, assuming you want to listen to the Spanish music in this video)

Looking Back at 2009 (Part II)

First of all, thank you Brig for your kind words.

2009 was full of firsts, and more seconds. Looking back at my personality from the beginning of this past year and now, I can say I've gotten a little bit more assertive. A little bit more sure of myself. But only a little. I'm yet to reach douchebag status, but I'm working hard!

Kindness seems to get the best of me. It's a trait that is ingrained in my lifestyle. I aim to please. This past year has shown me the up and down of this part of me. To sacrifice is to love. To sacrifice what is not yours to give is foolish. I need to understand where to draw the line. This is something that will probably take months to learn, and years to focus, but a there is no better time to start than now.

I've made many decisions. Most were decent. Some were great! But far too many were terrible. So many regrets manifested this past year that I wonder how many seconds have been shaved off my life just from sheer depression and anxiety. And yet, I can say it wasn't a bad year. In fact, I can say it was a pretty damn good year.

Oh, and my beloved iPhone. Thank you my bedside reindeer. I am very grateful.

And the core of this post...

2009 brought out the decision for me to quit FFXI. I decided to live my life.

2010 has brought me recognition. FFXI wasn't the problem. It was my obsession and lack of discipline.

Therefore, I am back. But this time, it will be for myself. As selfish as it sounds, it really is the only way I can play FFXI and not let it interfere with my life. My time as an elitist player is over. The path of the relic is no more for me. Farewell endgame events. I miss you, but not that much.

My friends, I hope you will forgive me for my absence. I will still not see many of you, but I hope my ghost of an existence is enough.

I have moved on.

Looking Back at 2009 (Part I)

It makes me feel lost. I think about the time I spent playing FFXI, and I think about the time that I spent on my music.

I've lost both.

Where do I go from here? I start school in January. I'm up for a manager position at Crocs. But where does this lead me to? Will this lead me to somewhere I want to be? Somewhere I have to be?

Will I be happy in the long run? Does this even matter?

I've been playing Dragonica to fill in the hole in my heart. I don't miss the events of FFXI anymore. I miss the gameplay a little bit (afk exp ftw). What I miss the most are my friends.

I do have more time now to concentrate on life. But what of it? I'm still pretty much stuck in the same place I have always been. Hopefully school will push me through a little bit. I'm not sure it will.

I'm in need of a life-changing event. I need a new direction.

Happy Holidays everyone.

Days Become Shorter...

Did I mention I hate Christmas? Oh ok. I HATE CHRISTMAS.

Actually, I just hate the holidays in general. The plastic smile of it all makes me sad.

FFXI... oh how I miss you.

Memories Fade...

...so help me make them clear!

I'm trying to figure out the names of a bunch of FFXI players. More specifically, those that I knew. If you can help me sort this out... please leave a comment. Or if you think I need to add names etc.

~~~~~WindurstianPride~~~~~
Teenyweeny
Seiryoku
Kunitetsu
Nakedpickle
Fataru
Amageus
Harperu
Rickjamez
Sono...? (Taru SAM?)
Aydn
Camarooni
Myaihze
Tula
Xzero
Lung
Kippy
Thammond

~~~~~WindurstianCrusade~~~~~
Aerys
Aiy
Alraunne
Appesso
Aurai
Azulmagia
Chirap
Chrisstreb
Chrystoph
Corral
Crucent
Crunchy
Emelio (Eme)
Enril
Eryan
Esazrael
Faeryl
Fairchild
Ginshiri
Glympse
Godofwar
Hirya
Ianthe
Iiroro
Ikarine
Kiska
Korol
Kyakimochi
Miasama
Mistweave
Nanokun
Noonew
Nuilvian
Nyunyu
Peawee
Pony
Pritz
Roddra
Somnar
Trevyn
Wolffsrain
Zephros
Anna...something... Annabeth? >_< I wrote a song for her damnit!

~~~~~?WP or WC?~~~~
Nyava
Kurtziza
Amelinna
Andrius
Blackmist
Bobbit
Cairstiona
Gyudva
Rayna
Shinxen
Shoshu
Tiupiu
Miaras
Imber
Kiobao
Mikeo
Yolina
Azzriel
Haynin
Eries
Hiaburi

~~~~~People who I had "issues" with~~~~~
Aingeal
Mystress
Poof
Syng

~~~~~Matrix~~~~~
Amako
Tasha's Character...
Domokun
That other guy... some leader or something? Idk...
Clave
Kyarutaru

~~~~~Loungie Linkshell~~~~~
lolblmbob
Giolythe
loltarumeleerdm

~~~~~pwnED (old)~~~~~
Aeribeth
Arikel
Huma
Norokko?

~~~~~pwnED (new)~~~~~

~~~~~Malloreon~~~~~

~~~~~??? People~~~~~
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