A friend of mine posted this video on facebook. So... I'll share it with you!
(you might want to press pause on the video to the right that's playing music, assuming you want to listen to the Spanish music in this video)
Saturday, January 23, 2010
Saturday, January 2, 2010
Looking Back at 2009 (Part II)
First of all, thank you Brig for your kind words.
2009 was full of firsts, and more seconds. Looking back at my personality from the beginning of this past year and now, I can say I've gotten a little bit more assertive. A little bit more sure of myself. But only a little. I'm yet to reach douchebag status, but I'm working hard!
Kindness seems to get the best of me. It's a trait that is ingrained in my lifestyle. I aim to please. This past year has shown me the up and down of this part of me. To sacrifice is to love. To sacrifice what is not yours to give is foolish. I need to understand where to draw the line. This is something that will probably take months to learn, and years to focus, but a there is no better time to start than now.
I've made many decisions. Most were decent. Some were great! But far too many were terrible. So many regrets manifested this past year that I wonder how many seconds have been shaved off my life just from sheer depression and anxiety. And yet, I can say it wasn't a bad year. In fact, I can say it was a pretty damn good year.
Oh, and my beloved iPhone. Thank you my bedside reindeer. I am very grateful.
And the core of this post...
2009 brought out the decision for me to quit FFXI. I decided to live my life.
2010 has brought me recognition. FFXI wasn't the problem. It was my obsession and lack of discipline.
Therefore, I am back. But this time, it will be for myself. As selfish as it sounds, it really is the only way I can play FFXI and not let it interfere with my life. My time as an elitist player is over. The path of the relic is no more for me. Farewell endgame events. I miss you, but not that much.
My friends, I hope you will forgive me for my absence. I will still not see many of you, but I hope my ghost of an existence is enough.
I have moved on.
2009 was full of firsts, and more seconds. Looking back at my personality from the beginning of this past year and now, I can say I've gotten a little bit more assertive. A little bit more sure of myself. But only a little. I'm yet to reach douchebag status, but I'm working hard!
Kindness seems to get the best of me. It's a trait that is ingrained in my lifestyle. I aim to please. This past year has shown me the up and down of this part of me. To sacrifice is to love. To sacrifice what is not yours to give is foolish. I need to understand where to draw the line. This is something that will probably take months to learn, and years to focus, but a there is no better time to start than now.
I've made many decisions. Most were decent. Some were great! But far too many were terrible. So many regrets manifested this past year that I wonder how many seconds have been shaved off my life just from sheer depression and anxiety. And yet, I can say it wasn't a bad year. In fact, I can say it was a pretty damn good year.
Oh, and my beloved iPhone. Thank you my bedside reindeer. I am very grateful.
And the core of this post...
2009 brought out the decision for me to quit FFXI. I decided to live my life.
2010 has brought me recognition. FFXI wasn't the problem. It was my obsession and lack of discipline.
Therefore, I am back. But this time, it will be for myself. As selfish as it sounds, it really is the only way I can play FFXI and not let it interfere with my life. My time as an elitist player is over. The path of the relic is no more for me. Farewell endgame events. I miss you, but not that much.
My friends, I hope you will forgive me for my absence. I will still not see many of you, but I hope my ghost of an existence is enough.
I have moved on.
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