Looking Back at 2009 (Part I)

It makes me feel lost. I think about the time I spent playing FFXI, and I think about the time that I spent on my music.

I've lost both.

Where do I go from here? I start school in January. I'm up for a manager position at Crocs. But where does this lead me to? Will this lead me to somewhere I want to be? Somewhere I have to be?

Will I be happy in the long run? Does this even matter?

I've been playing Dragonica to fill in the hole in my heart. I don't miss the events of FFXI anymore. I miss the gameplay a little bit (afk exp ftw). What I miss the most are my friends.

I do have more time now to concentrate on life. But what of it? I'm still pretty much stuck in the same place I have always been. Hopefully school will push me through a little bit. I'm not sure it will.

I'm in need of a life-changing event. I need a new direction.

Happy Holidays everyone.

Days Become Shorter...

Did I mention I hate Christmas? Oh ok. I HATE CHRISTMAS.

Actually, I just hate the holidays in general. The plastic smile of it all makes me sad.

FFXI... oh how I miss you.