Subscription Canceled

As of November 12, 2010, 10:52 PM, Maikeru(kun) and Kyakimochi were terminated.

I will write a formal goodbye when I have time.

Yep.

Yes, I have decided to quit FFXI.

The epic of Maikeru will come to an end very soon. I stopped playing about 4 months ago, and I really don't miss it. Oh sure, I feel the pangs of lost friendship, but that's about it. Now that the game is into overdrive, I have no motivation to even try. More importantly, I have gone back to school and I will not have time anyway.

I have already given about half my wealth away to Miasama and the random masses. I'm yet to decide how I will give away the rest. I'm trying to sell the more expensive items as gil is easier to divide. But really, I'm giving almost everything to Nightfall therefore gil will be easier for her to give away in my place.

I often consider about having one last fling, one last mission, one last party. I'm sure if I asked my cohorts, they would, without hesitation, indulge my real final fantasy of exploring Vana'diel. As of right now, I have not decided. But if I did have to decide now, I would probably like a final picture with everyone I love either at Bearclaw Pinnacle or Full Moon Mountain. Although getting to Fenrir is much easier, the snow is much prettier in my opinion.

Decisions aside, I have also considered and decided against making a farewell video. My timestamp in FFXI is merely that. Rendering a montage will only well up false emotions of being missed when in reality I am not except by a select few. Should I make a video for those select few? No. They already know I miss them as well. So therefore, it makes very little logical sense to make any effort for a media-friendly goodbye except for self-gratification. I do that enough in my spare time. (Did I just make a tmi admission? lol)

Tomorrow is another day when I get to think about my first steps into this online fantasy and final steps back into real life.

Closing time...

I'm considering closing my FFXI account. I have not logged in for over a month. Although these past two months have been pretty... current-life changing. But the thing is... I don't miss it. I just don't.

I think I'm done.

And I'm not thrilled about the level cap raising. Also, my friends are just not around anymore. So... it's not much fun. I haven't completely decided yet. I'll probably know but the end of next month.

Meanwhile... I've been playing MH3, (Monster Hunter Tri). Online play has different servers. Open servers have like 15 rooms, and the other servers have like 3-5 rooms. Each room have 20 something gates. Each gate can house 100 players max. Each gate can has about 30 cities. So... assuming my math is horrible, there are over 24,000 locations I can play. That's a lot of places I can randomly end up in.

And randomly, I chose the room with a "Clave" and a "Kyattsu."

OH MY FREAKING G

How crazy was that?! LOL! It's cool that I get to play with some familiar faces.

Anyway, that's it for now. This blog won't probably last. Sad to say.

New Direction Blah Blah Blah...

Same 'ol news. Stuff happens, things change. In my case, things have been changing rapidly and every day brings new experiences. Every week my life goes in a different direction. My heading keeps changing based on what gets thrown at me.

But anyway.

I have yet to decide my FFXI future. Maikeru is gone. Maikerukun is here, and I'm still not used to it.

I haven't even played FFXIV yet. WTF?!

And I kinda... moved out and moved into an apartment with Kya. So... ya...

Oh and Monster Hunter Tri has taken whatever time I have left for myself.

So... I think we will be creating new blogs soon. HAH! More work, I'm crazy. But I really want to do this. I really want to be able to blog everyday and post pictures everyday. So...

This blog will either stay as is (35%), change into a "gaming blog" (50%), or be terminated due to me quitting FFXI (whatever % is left over). I will be creating 1-3 other blogs. The first will be my everyday blog. This is where it gets tricky. If I quit FFXI, I will most likely create a MH3 blog... but like I said, might just be a gaming blog. Also based on my lifestyle and the goals I want to accomplish, I will create supplemental blogs based on personal fitness, art (music and photography), and possibly a... well, I won't share that one for now. The last will be a very, very small chance. Kya suggested it, and I kind of don't want to do it because I don't explore my options within that... thing. And also I've gotten in trouble for having an opinion online before. I don't need another catholic school banning me... ok, nevermind.

Anyway, I need to continue cleaning up my life and apartment. I'll post what I decide soon. Maybe next week.

Tired! Why am I awake?!

ALA MOANA CROCS GRAND OPENING! Friday, April 9th, 9:30AM (HST)

Today I worked in the storage room for practically 10 hours straight (with breaks here and there). The temp. kid's cage were lined with stacks of three boxes, about six or seven stacks total. The top of the stack had a layer of dust so when I pulled the boxes to break down, waves of dust practically engulfed my face. I was coughing for the first couple hours. After that, the lingering crocs dust (or "storage dust" some may call) began to creep into my lungs and I started to get dizzy. After taking a couple breaks, I felt better. That didn't last long. Our design guy had to spray paint our sign and... well, you get the picture. Not much air circulation, I was feeling light-headed after about twenty minutes.

Overall, I managed quite a bit of work. I set up most of the hooks for the kids' shoes, and stocked about 75% of our product.

I'm going to try and get off early tomorrow and head home. Hopefully I can catch an hour of FFXIV. Saturday is mine, so I'll be able to get on for a complete test, if it's ok with my KyaNyan.

Also, I'm trying a RSS feed blogger app for facebook. Hope it works!

Tomorrow will be our first grand opening! I say first because my manager hinted that we may have a second grand opening with the frills. This will be our kind of... in-store training day.

To sleep!

Hello Sylph...

Slowly going through the motions of accepting the "-kun" part of name. The transition wasn't as bad as I anticipated. I think it was the weeks of reluctance that kind of prepared me for it. I feel really bad for some people who expected to have their name only to find out that it wasn't so. They didn't have the time to take in the news. They had to deal with it there and then. I feel especially bad for Nightfall (Nitefall), Barlow (Barllow), Rafa (???), and several others. They had to take a full stab as they tried to log in. I just barely registered my disappointment as I tried different names to see which looked the best.

Maikerutaru just felt too long. Michael, Maiku, Mike, and several others were already taken. Adding the "kun" made the name seem... ok... So far I haven't regretted my decision. Eventually it'll stick and I'll just swallow the crap SE feeds me. No homo.

I don't know if Nite found out (God it's going to take getting used to that name), but there's a new weapon called Nightfall. That's salt in the wound considering she's leveling DRK at this moment and it would have been her namesake. Bullshit, isn't it?

Upon logging in, I created a Linkshell called YouseiRenmei (Fairy Alliance) and gathered all the people I knew just to see how everyone was. The next morning, /Senkei/ and /Malloreon/ were recreated so everyone went back to their groups. I haven't seen Somnar or Faeryl yet. I hope they find a home. I wonder if they're avoiding me... hopefully it's just bad luck.

I joined a Linkshell called SilkDragon before the server merge and I decided to stick with them. They're a nice group, and they also seem to hang around the late hours which is perfect for me because that's when I get online.

So what will happen to WindurstianCrusade? I have no clue. No one really seems to want to stick together. I have no idea what will happen. I want all of us to stay, but I need someone else to take the reins. I can not moderate the Linkshell if I'm not around during the PST/EST afternoon times. I'm just not around for it anymore.

/pwnED/ was also recreated. I talked to Brig and he said most likely I will be able to get my BST AF. Thank goodness for friends, eh? I get AF even though I'm not there. Sure I'm paying gil for it, but it's still awesome. Loyalty pays off, and I will always believe that.

That's enough for today. As soon as I redesign my blog to fit the -kun in, I will start my facebook syncing and picture of the day.

This year is surely the year of change.

Farewell Maikeru

Well this is it. Server merger is tomorrow. I have yet to decide my name but here are my best choices:

1) Maikerutaru
2) Maikerurawr
3) Mootaru
4) Michael

My last day on Fairy was lame. I wasn't able to get online when everyone else was online. Oh well. I hope pwnED carries through.

As for WC... Dunno yet. I'm personally shying away from leading (or "leading") again. I'm just not interested in being serious about this game anymore. Everything is changing, and SE is taking away the most important thing to me: my identity. I have an abundance of animosity filling my range of emotions, ergo, focusing on the positive is difficult at this moment. But... watigondo.

Well, farewell for not. My future will be determined in the next few days.

More Delays

Basically I won't be setting up everything until I figure out what my name will be on Sylph. I just tried to create a character on Sylph but it looks like I'm too late. I guess whatever name I get will be what it'll be.

Changes in Life/Blogstyle

First of all, I'm getting ready to say goodbye to Maikeru. It's been a long journey, but I guess losing my name will force me to lose a portion of my image. I will no longer be just "Maikeru." It's going to be sad... I've based so many things these past few years on my name alone. Maikeru was not just my FFXI name. It's my real life alias in which I go by on the internet outside Fairy. My identity is being replaced... and it's a bit hard to swallow.

With that in mind, this blog will also be changed and renamed. Depending on the name I will take in Sylph will determine what this blog will look like. I'm hoping for a smooth transition with Maikerutaru because I actually have a few ideas what I'll do with that name.

Second, I want to become more involved with my media ideas. I will be moving forward with networking all of my activities using this blog as my central hub. Basically I will be finding ways to connect all of my online activities and make this blog a way of keeping it all together. We'll see... it's a bit ambitious, but not impossible.

Third, I will finally start one of my New Year's Resolutions: Post a picture a day. You see how it connects with my second? So basically the stuff I post on facebook will be posted here, etc. etc. Which means, more likely than not, you will see a new post nearly every day. Exciting, no?

Fourth, I'm trying to build my music library. So maybe... I will post my library. o_O Then you can help me build it?! Idea!

Well, that's all for today. The pictures will start coming in tomorrow, along with a song of the day that I download. The other stuff will be post-merge of the servers.

Name Change

So ya obviously, I need help with my name change. Something that will be easy to remember. These are the ones I have so far...

[still japanesie]
Maikerutaru
Maikerukiru
Maikerukun
Maikerusama
Maisama (LOL@this)
Shinmaikeru (Shinmai taken >_<)

[japanese-ish]
Maiky
Maiktaru

[other]
Michael (surprisingly not taken, or never made it to Jeuno AH)

The weird thing is, Michaely is taken. That's so odd.

I'm leaning on Maikerutaru because it's the easiest, but I'm still considering the others. Most especially Shinmaikeru (True Michael), but that could be just spite. But anyway, I want to decide soon and create a mule there to hold my name. Halp! :(

Meh and Stuff

Did I win the Nomad Mog Bonanza?
No.

Will I change servers?
Possibly... like 25% chance.

Will FFXI turn into WoW with the new updates?
Yes and no.

Yes because with the raised cap, everything about the game will change. Each job combo, based on what else they release, will be crazy. The level of what we already deem to be hax will be raised up a notch, and then kicked up twenty times more. With that in mind, I don't even want to think about the monster changes. Chaos will be an understatement.

No because of the level difficulty when compared to WoW. Sure when we hit the cap it'll look the same. Characters swarming with non-stop action. But the grind is still much more daunting, especially with the job combination possibilities.

What's my theory behind these radical changes?
SE is trying to cope with the depression of releasing FFXIV. I believe FFXIV will be much, much more difficult than FFXI in all aspects. Because of this, the fanbase of the FFMMO will drop... unless they stir up interest in FFXI. I believe the veterans of FFXI and those who have invested so much into their character will stay on XI. XIV will just be another chance to start over.

Anyway, that's my two cents.

New Stuff

I'll be posting new content as soon as I decide what I plan to feature on this website. I might rename this website if I move to FFXIV as I won't be from Windurst anymore. Again, assuming my name follows as well. I'm not sure how the name reservation will work out. Will I have to race against other Maikerus from other servers? I hope not.

Awesome Video

A friend of mine posted this video on facebook. So... I'll share it with you!

(you might want to press pause on the video to the right that's playing music, assuming you want to listen to the Spanish music in this video)

Looking Back at 2009 (Part II)

First of all, thank you Brig for your kind words.

2009 was full of firsts, and more seconds. Looking back at my personality from the beginning of this past year and now, I can say I've gotten a little bit more assertive. A little bit more sure of myself. But only a little. I'm yet to reach douchebag status, but I'm working hard!

Kindness seems to get the best of me. It's a trait that is ingrained in my lifestyle. I aim to please. This past year has shown me the up and down of this part of me. To sacrifice is to love. To sacrifice what is not yours to give is foolish. I need to understand where to draw the line. This is something that will probably take months to learn, and years to focus, but a there is no better time to start than now.

I've made many decisions. Most were decent. Some were great! But far too many were terrible. So many regrets manifested this past year that I wonder how many seconds have been shaved off my life just from sheer depression and anxiety. And yet, I can say it wasn't a bad year. In fact, I can say it was a pretty damn good year.

Oh, and my beloved iPhone. Thank you my bedside reindeer. I am very grateful.

And the core of this post...

2009 brought out the decision for me to quit FFXI. I decided to live my life.

2010 has brought me recognition. FFXI wasn't the problem. It was my obsession and lack of discipline.

Therefore, I am back. But this time, it will be for myself. As selfish as it sounds, it really is the only way I can play FFXI and not let it interfere with my life. My time as an elitist player is over. The path of the relic is no more for me. Farewell endgame events. I miss you, but not that much.

My friends, I hope you will forgive me for my absence. I will still not see many of you, but I hope my ghost of an existence is enough.

I have moved on.